I'm realizing that who I might not be 'trans' I'm not really sure of who I am or what the fuck I am- but now that I'm growing up and realizing I have to be an adult- it's like 'trans' isn't a worry. I'm okay that I don't feel 'trans' too. I'm not hurt or confused or scared by it. I feel like I'm me. I'm not sure if I can say I feel like 'him' or I feel like 'her' but I know I feel like me.
My birth name (Falon) is crawling back onto my back like the old coat you found in the back of your closet. Yeah it doesn't fit much anymore but the (Eric) Coat is getting too small..I know that sounds really stupid- but it's eay to much how I feel.
Maybe it's me saying I was fitting a stereotype all along. A birth female growing up as a male emotion realizing he's actually meant to be a she all along.
It's like trans but with an extra step I suppose...
And to be honest I'm perfectly fine with it.
I'm feeling happy again, and that's all I want.